Thick Skin

Beauty is masked by pain, I guess I always knew But when you’re young you try to avoid the truth Being naïve can be such a blessing, until it’s time to flip the hour glass And your whole world is raining down on you, and you just wait for the time to pass Swimming your way through the sands of time Listening to yourself scream, and yet that moment feels so sublime When the frame of your fingers holds that moment still Close your eyes and make a wish, cause it’s hard to know what’s real When my reflection turns into a photograph and I’ve lost my innocence Lost my childhood, lost my way, and now I am seeking guidance From whoever would like to point me in the direction I need to go To find what is missing, so I can save my soul I’m not sure what I miss more, reality or imagination My ability to dream, or my ability to function Do my eyes deceive me? Or have years passed by me without notice Is it just me, or did you go back on your promise? The blonde little girl in my pictures is so bli...

Today I found myself consumed by my ambivalence Lost within my mind, and yet lost in its absence No thought to appease my insanity No action to satisfy my vanity You get one life, you get your choices You can’t talk your way out of it, no matter how many voices Speak up to fight for it to be different You can yell and you can scream, but there’s no reset I remember hearing my heart beat, in the still of the night Dreaming of slow and steady waiting for the insight That will tell me all the secrets that I have been hording Hitting play and rewind like a worn out recording No one really cares about anyone but themselves They tuck feelings away like they put old books up on the shelves Collecting dust, never even touched, never given a chance to feel To be held in someone’s arms, to be given a chance to heal Time leaves wrinkles, and eventually we all break Some of us can’t help but be defined by our mistakes