What I've Lost
Slowly realize what I've lost I've already begun to pay the cost Plague my mind with all of the resons why I thought I was better off without you by my side But as I slip into the darkness of my former world I find That all of the mistakes I made float around amongst my mind I can cradle my head in my hands and cry Or I can sit in my silence and keep asking myself why In numbing myself to pain, I numbed myself to love And it only brought all the things I wish I had less of This stone in my chest, that beats me all the time Like the victim of an abusive husband, I am the wife I cower in my corner afraid of how happiness will change me Afraid to tread the waters of an unfamiliar sea For they say happiness is not a destination, but a way of life A way of which I am unaccustomed, like cutting with the handle of the knife My hands are bloody and scarred from avoiding the right way For I am lost and confused and I have lost my way Been separated from what I know best Depression and s...