Temper

Tempers flare, and it’s back again
This evil that I can’t defend
Myself from, and it haunts me now in the still of the night
When I thought today was a good one, I thought I was right
Oh, but wrong again, always wrong am I
For believing that there is such a thing as peace
Maybe someday there will be, but please
Until I find it, save me from this, from my hell
I can’t take the yelling, the anger that seems to tell
Me that this will never end, and I will never be left
To figure out myself, because I will always feel like a theft
Of the heart has been committed, you don’t see how you break me
You don’t see how tortured my soul is, you don’t want to see
I fear you never will, oh how I wish you could love
How I wish you weren’t so hard, or so absent, or so hurt, or all of the above
I just want calm and collected, is that so much to ask for
I just want someone to notice that I have never picked myself up from the floor
Still lying where you left me last time things got tough for you
How I wish you could see me down here, as I would die for you
To protect the little softness that is still searching somewhere inside
Of whatever secret you always seem to want to hide