Heart Attack

Everything these days lacks its luster
Trying to find another minute to fluster
Among the living, and the barely ever there
Blank expressions constantly polluting the air
Every time I watch you walk away I die a little more inside
I keep waiting for my lungs and oxygen to collide
But I hold my breath, I wait for a moment
When I have the strength to catch it
I don’t want to breathe another breath without you
But I don’t get that choice, I’m forced to do without you
That song comes on the radio, and my heart starts to sing
Dancing in and out of this endless ring
This circle that I walk along, waiting or hoping you’ll come back
Wanting to believe you’ll return to me and break this heart attack
I don’t know why I still wait, when you don’t want me anymore
But I rot in my stupidity, in my so called love that I once adored
I am too crossed to understand where I go from here
Do I stay and wait or do I stray and try to appear
Like my heart is in one piece, and I’ll be just fine
I cant, I have tried and failed and failed again, I think it’s time
To just give up, to be alone, heart broken and in suffering
Than to go on living as this shadow acting and pretending
As if the sun will rise brighter and the clouds will part
Who am I kidding? From the day I met you, you had my heart

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