I'm Not Sorry

The fog has been lifted and your silhouette has faded away
I see you now, for who you really are and I must say
That I had a feeling all along
That I knew what was coming so I had to be strong
I braced myself as I fell
Into a burning pit of hell
I wish you would have been honest, and came right out with it
But now I look like a fool, cause I went along with it
You pulled the wool over my eyes and spoke such sweet words
Each one revealing a little more about the truth, little passwords
Secrets, bread crumbs that you had left behind to torture me with
Make me chase you down and give me someone I’d never catch up with
I guess that the lies really were what I thought
And I suppose that for believing this would work I deserved what I got
But I’m going to stand up, I won’t let this break me
I won’t let what you have put me through destroy me
You are lost in a tangled mess, but I have found the end of the string
I unraveled this little mystery and left you searching
Searching for an answer, but I won’t be there this time
I am done pretending, I am done living a lie
The weight on my shoulders has been lifted
I can breathe again, that is the best gift you could have given
I think I am better off without you I’m sorry to say
But as I think back, you hurt me almost every day
You said I didn’t get you, but you never got me
I still think you were so wrapped up in you that you don’t know anything about me
I think you need to live your life as you have made it for yourself
And as for me, I am moving on and starting to find myself
You took who I was from me, and I didn’t even notice I was gone
But the air is quite pure now and it is baptizing my lungs
I am taking deep breaths and it feels natural again
Thank you for killing me so I could be born again

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