Thick Skin

Just a plain white page Filled with the words I could never say Just an empty hand With only silence to reprimand The back of your head is the last thing I see Every time you walk away from me With stubborn weight In every step you take Feet to the pavement, you run away again Want to keep you, but it’s me you transcend This is the storm before the calm Someday you’ll come back to my arms Hope keeps me waiting for you Even when I know you’re gone You’re just a bird who’s outgrown its cage And I can’t fulfill my empty rage For loving you and setting you free To fly toward the sun with your own wings Not even a picture to remember you by Hand you over to gravity, and pray that you can fly And though my heart has little value You will always carry it with you This is the storm before the calm Someday you’ll come back to my arms Hope keeps me waiting for you Even when I know you’re gone Years pass by without not...

We’re told when we’re young to stay young But all we want is to be older, so forward we’re flung Into a life that never stops moving A life in constant motion, a war with time, and we’re losing They told us we would hate it, they told us we would care When all we had were yesterdays, and memories here and there But here we sit on the perpetual swing Back and forth we go, and we scream Wish to be younger, wish to go back Always wanting what we don’t have and what we lack It’s hard to be yourself in a world where you’re not And you can’t be a kid forever and you won’t, but you should, or should you not? It’s all so confusing and we get lost in the hustle Live life with no meaning; treat a heart like it’s just a muscle So here we sit wishing we could go back to being a kid And when they tell us we’ll hate growing up, we’ll just say that we did   

When your heart and your mind are at war To what extent must you even the score? Scrap metal and bullets tearing their way through my body Soldiers marching, the heavy thud of boots trudging around; muddy Torn between what I think is right and what I feel is real My blasphemous thoughts shuddered by the sting of steel It weaves elegantly in and out of the threads that hold the secrets inside of my skin It dances along the very edge of everything that I’ve attempted to keep locked in Prisoners of the soul that I’ve learned to call my own Constantly scratching and clawing at the walls of their dysfunctional home I can hear the footsteps in the streets I hear their prayers, and their constant cries for peace The heart wants what the heart wants, but does it ever get it? And if mind rules body, can it harm it and never sweat it? And if fate is what is meant to be Then what is to become of me? Constant riots uproar, begging for this war to end F...

You stole my heart with a smile, and you broke it with a trigger pull You seemed so put together, but you really had your hands full Never feeling good enough, never living up to expectations You thought that you were failing, when all you needed was some patience And I wish that I had had that talk with you, where we share our secrets Instead of them weighing down on you, you could trust me to keep it You ask me where my scars are from, and I ask you why you want to leave Why you’re tired of being here with us, why your heart is on your sleeve You gave so much to us and maybe you took too much from yourself You, ever longing to fulfill a purpose greater than yourself I wish that there had been a better solution for you other than waiting Waiting for something better to happen, instead of looking to John 3:16 If it was eternal life you desired, then eternal life you shall get For you are the closest to any angel that I have ever met And I miss yo...

Hide your face because you’re ashamed to be who you are Never knew a destination could be so far Somewhere deep down you always knew that love was just a word And to think that a word can bring you happiness is just absurd It’s all about the journey they say About the mistakes you make along the way But mistakes are just excuses for falling from the path Believing that every choice we make has some sort of aftermath Whether it’s good or bad, it can define who we become When the truth is that we all fall victim beneath someone’s thumb We succumb to words, we falter to the simplest of sins Because we live in a world where nobody loses and nobody wins We all funnel into the same destiny; it is eminent that we go And in the end we are remembered not for who we are, but for who we know We ask ourselves our entire lives where happiness and love have gone When the answer to those questions is making your own heart your home For when nobody can seem ...

You told me I was what you needed I was the bandages that covered up your bleedin I took the shattered pieces of your past And I placed together this jig-saw glass Reflections of what you wanted and what you just couldn't change And I fell for your love, when I got lost in this exchange You told me we could make it You told me it was real You told me you'd never fake it You told me I could feel What is it like to be worth it? What does love feel like when it's real? You gave me the innocence in your eyes That he stole from you with his family ties You told me I could fix you Take this life stained in the darkest of hues Turn it into a life that you could see yourself living But you got so used to taking from me you failed to see how much I'd been giving You told me we could make it You told me it was real You told me you'd never fake it You told me I could feel What is it like to be worth it? What does love feel like when it's...

A thousand miles away, yet you’re sitting next to me Can’t help but remember what we used to be Jealousy consumes me though I know it shouldn’t Knowing someone else can fill the shoes I couldn’t I knew that you wouldn’t be single long, but now that its here I can’t help but feel like part of you is still here With me, some unfinished business Some unidentified flirting, its harmless To everyone except me, I feel like its real And I wish that I could start over Replay those moments over and over When I let you slip away, when I didn’t fight for you When it felt so nice to be wanted, and I didn’t know what to do To win your heart, to win your affection When I was trapped in between, so much tension I was torn and you were broken, and between us there was so much to fix That it seemed we would both succumb to each other’s tricks We sit here in silence yet there’s so much left unsaid So much misinterpreted in the expressions I have read For...