Torn

A thousand miles away, yet you’re sitting next to me

Can’t help but remember what we used to be

Jealousy consumes me though I know it shouldn’t

Knowing someone else can fill the shoes I couldn’t

I knew that you wouldn’t be single long, but now that its here

I can’t help but feel like part of you is still here

With me, some unfinished business

Some unidentified flirting, its harmless

To everyone except me, I feel like its real

And I wish that I could start over

Replay those moments over and over

When I let you slip away, when I didn’t fight for you

When it felt so nice to be wanted, and I didn’t know what to do

To win your heart, to win your affection

When I was trapped in between, so much tension

I was torn and you were broken, and between us there was so much to fix

That it seemed we would both succumb to each other’s tricks

We sit here in silence yet there’s so much left unsaid

So much misinterpreted in the expressions I have read

For all of these feelings still linger on our breath

All of these deep conversations are lacking depth

The hardest part about goodbye is that I can’t escape your company

We are suffocated by proximity and bound by our misery