Thick Skin

What we had was like a handful of glitter Beautiful, but chaotic and messy, so full of anger Toss it up in the air watch it fall apart Blow it away as far away from your heart As you can, because the most beautiful things will destroy you Roses will prick you wit their thorns, and women will pretend to know you To love you, to understand your sacrifice, but all they want is your attention And they’ll do and say anything to keep your affection But she is glitter. Deceivingly beautiful, but will cover up the glue underneath holding her together And all you see is a perfect disguise of everything she never wanted you to see; it’s clever The way she hides behind her ruse Never stopping to think that her flaws could be beautiful too The person beneath the skin; the glue That nobody else will dare dig deep enough to see The crying, the traits that nobody asks for, but you dare to try To see them for who they are, and you hold them when they...

Back then it was so easy loving you I had nothing in this world better to do Than to hold you, to kiss you But time has ran away with us, and the you I knew Is different and so am I It seems that all we have are memories to get us by You want me to wrap my mind around the past To hold onto how I felt about you after all these years have passed But I can’t pretend that everything is the same I can’t pretend that after we have changed That we can have all of that back All of the love that you said you never had When I begged for answers and you left me with questions Turned your back because you were scared leaving me with the assumptions That you never meant anything that you said Let me hate you for so long for something you never did And I can’t chase you now, I can’t offer to be there My responsibility lies with someone new, and to betray her Would be the worst thing I could take away from all of this After everything we’ve ...

You were my best friend when nobody else would stand beside me You gave me confidence when everyone else degraded me I got picked on and made fun of but you always had my back Always making a joke out of it to make me laugh Telling me to own it, to always be myself No matter what people called me, no matter what everyone else Thought about me, you knew what was underneath The tough defensive exterior that I showed the world, you knew beneath All of that anger was somebody worth talking to And just one voice telling me it would be okay was enough so I have to thank you And all of these are just words that I never said And you never know when it’s too late, when one of your friends must rest his head Forever. It’s the longest measurement of time It’s how long we said we would always be friends, forever is a long time And even though you’re gone I’ll never forget what you’d given me When nobody else would waste their time on me When everyone made fun o...

You bring light to where the darkness lives It’s trying on a heart to feel helpless Your lips speak the words that I love to hear Entire sentences in kisses, you keep me here Holding your body close to me, just to feed off of your heart beat To bring me to life when I most desperately need Someone to save me from this pain in my chest Your hands collide with my skin and you put me to rest Your touch puts me at ease Playing me like piano keys And the only audible sound is the space between you and me Beating hearts, little sighs, the way I can hardly breathe When your lips are pressed onto mine Looking at you as our fingers intertwine Want to spend forever just like this With nothing to worry about except our next kiss

The days I don’t joke about it are the worst ones People want answers from me, want reasons As to why I have so much love for everyone around me But the love I need for myself is something I can’t see My mirror doesn’t reflect it What everyone else seems to see so I deflect it Compliments, and I embrace my insecurities Transform them into laughter, my own beautiful monstrosities I can put a smile on your face; I’ll always make you feel better It doesn’t matter how I feel, cause I can change the weather For you, I can turn rain into the sun And even if it’s not for me, I made a difference for someone I wake up knowing what I’ve done and know that I can change The world for someone else who may be suffering the same All they needed was someone who cared enough to make their day And who am I to think that what I need is more important than them anyway? If I spend all night awake Because of the pain that I sometimes cannot shake I h...

There are too many tears and too little cheek Your words and your hurt are making me weak And you said your love was endless You said that it would last But the person I was before Is staying in the past And this is who I am, and I’m still your daughter This is me, I’m not changing for anybody You’re my family; you’re my father How can you tell me you don’t love me Anymore This is the life I have to live It’s not something that I chose Because why would you choose to give Yourself a harder life than those Who can love who they want with no consequences There’s nothing enlightened about this There’s nothing better about this But this is who I am, and I’m still your daughter This is me, I’m not changing for anybody You’re my family; you’re my father How can you tell me you don’t love me Anymore Because of who I have to be Because of who I love There are far worse things for me To have become So I’m asking...

You smell like a summer breeze Rolling off the beaches of the sea Calm and gentle you move around me Against all will I let you surround me Wind pushing my hair out of my face The warmth of the sun finding its place On my skin, and calling it home The memory of you lingers long after your gone Haunting me so pleasantly it’s hard to forget When you don’t want to let go of the sunset Just a moment before it drifts below the horizon line A burst of light that I thought for a second was mine And only mine, like it was made just for me Something beautiful and simple that aligned so perfectly With the contours of my heart Burning effortlessly in my chest, a fire that gracefully tore apart Every ventricle, every vein and every chamber Every kiss I wanted to keep, every memory I wanted to remember You are scarred into the tissue on my heart, and I want to keep you So I embrace the pain it brings because I cant leave you You leave a swe...

--> Some of the greatest things in this life contain just one word Love, freedom, and happiness they’re all the ones you’ve heard The words that have in them more power than any person may hold Words, that when they’re spoken, break everything that you’ve been told Everyone needs love and everyone must find it Before we’re too old, we have to search for it, or we’ll be left behind it Because love can chew us up and spit us out And we’ll tumble head over heels, and never doubt That our happily ever after and our “prince charming’s” do exist Because fairy tales are so much easier to believe than to see how it really is When the clock strikes midnight, it isn’t just a glass slipper we leave behind We leave fragments of ourselves for that one special someone to find Hoping that if we shed enough of ourselves along the way That our “true love” will pick them up and put it together, and carry us away But there is no glory in that road because it just l...

She pulls at her hair and tries to scream But no sound emerges from her lips, she is left to dream To hope that silence will let go of her and let her live She has no smiles left to fake, no more of her broken heart to give She is forced to learn the difference between right and wrong Though, nothing is real, so why be strong? She looks out the window at a world so full of color Looks at herself, drenched in black and white she realizes her horror Wonders, maybe the world is the one that’s completely deranged Maybe she isn’t so broken and completely insane The people in this world look directly into her eyes, and still overlook her misery She looks through those same eyes in the mirror, yet seems to miss the mystery Doesn’t understand how people can miss so much of what is right in front of their faces Yet it doesn’t truly bother her, considering she was trying to hide it in the first place She looks at a world of robots, acting how they a...