All Too Familiar Blade

Again the moment passes me by.. I can’t breathe

It seems that I have tried and failed again, perhaps my destiny

Is to be alone and to reflect on the mistakes I’ve made

To constantly feel the sting of an all too familiar blade

Dancing its way through my heart, reminding me how much this hurts

To never be good enough, to falter in the arms of another, and words

Are all I have again.

Tears are all I have again.

The rain is my only friend

It surrounds me, wraps me up in its calm and effortless sadness

And maybe this time I can just melt away with it, disappearing into the blissfulness

Of feeling everything, and nothing at all

The numbness has returned to my heart, it has turned cold

With years of betrayal and lies, I fold

I throw in my hand and call it a draw

And all I have is an empty ribcage, and a broken jaw

Taken every punch that was thrown my way with no more cheeks to turn

And still the empty space in my chest still seems to burn

With the future that I so desperately tried to imagine

And foolishly I thought it could be real.. I was so determined

To love so hard she would never want to leave me

That I didn’t listen to how much she really didn’t want me

And I here I sit barefoot on the concrete, the rain coming down

And I can’t help but feel like this is it for me.. I’ve officially let everybody down

And my heart is bursting at the seams where I had tried to sew it back together

And it falls apart again, lying broken in the pathway of love, forever