The Catch on Casted Line

I have admired you from nearby, always just a glance away

And yet it seemed there was an ocean between us, a steep wave

Could make you lose sight of me, and I you

And you would be swept carefully away by new horizons, by old things brought anew

And the things I thought I once new about your soul

Were just pieces of respect, now joined with lack thereof, all things made whole

An image of you that I had not wished to see

A resentment, a pain that I thought I had cast away into the arms of the sea

So long ago, I remembered a time when I would have preferred to drown

To slip beneath the waves and listen to the sound

Of darkness closing in on me

As steady as the slowing of a heartbeat

That once gave me life, gave me breath

Could just as well be the very thing to give me death

And now I know why they say it is a curse to feel everything so deeply

For my heart is as vast as the ocean itself, and I fear it’s just as empty

And I can sail my vessel to the ends of the earth, and further still

Searching for answers, and never be fulfilled

Once the tide rolls in, and the footprints washed away

The memory of what once was can never stay

And I’ll be standing on this shoreline, heart in hand

To always be anchored to it, to be cemented in the sand

Watching my love be erased and replaced

Wave after wave, I watch the world that I have faced

Continue spinning, the moon always pulls the tide

Further out and closer still to the pain I have tried to hide

And of all the fish in the sea, of every catch on casted line

I will willingly throw them all back to protect this heart of mine