Pandemic


In the reflection of the black mirror on the wall

My arm is delicately balanced between your head and your pillow

Your mind swimming through possible solutions

Through a sea of emotions

Riding the wake of wave after wave of loss and grief

Too much for one mind to keep

But we live in this world now

The upside down

Where everything that you thought was, isn’t

And everything that wasn’t, is

How do you deflect the storm?

The barrage of little deaths?

This land where birdsong doesn’t seem to hold the same tune

It seems all the world has turned down the volume

On the beautiful, wonderful things

There are no voices singing

No rejoicing in moments of joy or gratitude

And we’ve turned the volume up

On sickness, hatred, anger, racism

All in the name of freedom

Our voices seem louder than ever

No wonder we’re tired

Every nerve is raw, every word is flawed

No matter how lightly we say it

No matter how kindly we place it

Something always seems out of place

I wonder if the earth itself is off its axis

The whole world is in retrograde

What will be our excuse for the way we’ve behaved?

I just want love to abound

I want to rejoice in the sound of laughter and song

I used to yearn for the days to be long

For the sun to burn in the sky for a whole day

And I was itching to run and play in it

Now I wait for the evenings so I can drift peacefully to sleep

And turn off my brain for a while

It is just too much for one mind to keep

I can only hold so much - that’s all anyone can do

Everything has its limit - nothing is forever

It just seems an eternity we’ve spent here

In this unfamiliar, unprecedented land of fear

No wonder it’s all we hear

The echoes bounding from one heart to another

Fear invades all minds sometime

But when your head rests on my shoulder

The world seems to spin a little slower

The sun feels warmer

And fear feels further away

We are encased in a protective layer of love

Just enough 

So that we will survive this

We will come out on the other side stronger

We just have to hold on a little bit longer


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