Thick Skin

She looks at me, slow, Subtle, weak in the knees, I Can no longer stand

She has always been The flicker of the candle Fore it’s blown away

Frozen are my lips Always speaking out of turn Rip the stitches out

Again the moment passes me by.. I can’t breathe It seems that I have tried and failed again, perhaps my destiny Is to be alone and to reflect on the mistakes I’ve made To constantly feel the sting of an all too familiar blade Dancing its way through my heart, reminding me how much this hurts To never be good enough, to falter in the arms of another, and words Are all I have again. Tears are all I have again. The rain is my only friend It surrounds me, wraps me up in its calm and effortless sadness And maybe this time I can just melt away with it, disappearing into the blissfulness Of feeling everything, and nothing at all The numbness has returned to my heart, it has turned cold With years of betrayal and lies, I fold I throw in my hand and call it a draw And all I have is an empty ribcage, and a broken jaw Taken every punch that was thrown my way with no more cheeks to turn And still the empty space in my chest still seems to burn With the future th...

This town never seemed so small Sitting here staring at these walls City limits never seemed so far No other place has ever left a scar This big, never hit this hard And maybe it was you maybe it was me Maybe it was everything The Friday night lights The winter snow So white and so cold Your hand reaches for mine And it sends shivers down my spine And I’m biting my tongue Trying not to tell you you’re the one I would give up this live for I’d die just to hold you a second more, more, more   It was that old house that I called home And soon I knew the day would come To walk away, to move on from what I’ve always known And dive headfirst into the great unknown And I’d have to leave this place behind me In the rearview mirror wrapped up in pine trees And long nights and secrets we’ll keep Knee-deep in the memories Your hand reaches for mine And it send shivers down my spine And I’m biting my tongue T...

Her sadness rests on the knuckles beneath her chin Her defeated eyes hanging heavy, her patience wearing thin The darkness had knocked on her door with force And instead of getting up to answer, she resides in her remorse She sits at the table staring blankly into the night Where stars and galaxies far away reflect what little light Surrounds her She wonders what it would be like to walk amongst those stars To romp about and feel as though she wasn’t stuck behind the iron bars Of the prison she has designed Inside her own mind Making herself the victim of her own petty crimes Making herself believe she didn’t have the strength to carry on And so she let herself believe all of the problems she faced were her burdens and hers alone That she lived and died by her own hand That she instilled the weakness in her knees that withdrew her strength to stand She believed that she had failed, and so she had She believed that she was the reason her eyes looke...

You have always been like a seed You planted yourself in my head in my time of need Made me feel wanted and loved and all of the things That I had hoped you would feel about me And you grew, spreading throughout my veins Rooting yourself deep into my skin, leaving stains On my heart, my mind, and my soul And ever since, I’ve been trying to get something back that you stole My heart beats on, but outside my chest In the palm of your hand, clutched in your fist, you never let it rest And after all these years maybe there is no getting it back I see you standing there under the lights, and it all rushes back The shortness of breath, sweaty palms, and racing heart Just hanging on your every word, waiting for you to tear me apart To tell me one thing, and do another, your actions never aligning with your words And I would be lying if I said it didn’t hurt Maybe I should have known better than to listen to what you told me But there wil...

The summer breeze rings in my ears like the explosion of a distant gunshot It sings to me the song of love lost and kisses caught That had been trusted to float amongst the wind to the lips of another To not be lead astray or be destroyed in the unpredictability of the weather When a summer’s day turns to night and the clouds slowly roll in To cast a shadow over those who turn upward their chins To let the light shine upon their face To give them shelter, to give them a safe place To hide in plain sight From those who have stolen the light Those who have used their hands to touch gently But used their words to burn idly Blissfully unaware of their presence Or even more unaware of how their absence Steals away the smile and effervescent laughter Of how the innocent were before, and now after The rain has poured and the lightning has struck There is only one feeling left, the feeling of being stuck Stuck in love with no one to lea...