Leave Me Alone

You want to leave me alone, but that’s not what I wanted
It never was, and I am haunted
By the fact that I can see your hand and not hold it
See those lips and not kiss you, it
Kills me to look in those eyes knowing that they are looking at someone else
The way you once looked at me, I don’t want to be by myself
But I don’t want to be around you
It should be no surprise that I can’t stand you
Because you and I should be together
Don’t you feel the same? When you look at me? Oh, that’s right, you never
Really felt the same, typical, I should be used to this
Looking at the same person that continues breaking my heart
Even though you’re not mine, this is like an art
That I have perfected, being broken, acting like I’m not
This is what you wanted, is it not?
For me to pretend that everything is fine and that I’m happy
You can’t ask for that, not this time, not from me
I hate pretending that this doesn’t hurt like hell
I hate the way you avoid my eyes, and well
I hate you a little, and then again I don’t
I want so much to prove to you that I was worth it, but I won’t
Or maybe I can’t, you’re so caught up in finding something, you don’t care who you step on
Well, you got what you wanted, you have him, and I’m gone
I hope that you are happy, knowing that you’ve done this to me again
I want to be, but I can’t be, it’s just to hard to be your friend

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