Lesions

The pain is insurmountable
This giant obstacle
That I don’t know how to overcome
And I feel dumb
Stupid/obtuse
For taking the abuse
Instead of leaving it behind like you
Everything comes so easy to you
Money, success, moving past
A love that didn’t last
For one of us
Just one of us
It still stings
Burns in my lungs, but it sings
When it sees a picture of you
And it brings a swell
A wave of longing to tell
And be told again
What I wouldn’t give to remain
In a memory
For eternity
My snow globe lover
Doesn’t it bother
You just a little?
Or is my heart just this brittle
Rusted toy-
I never meant to annoy
You with petty questions
Love leaves lesions
And emptiness
It stings, it burns, it teases
But it never actually IS.

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