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The Song (in progress)

G.                                   D I've been trying to find the right         C Words to write G.               Cadd9         Am To make you fall for me G.                               D.                                      C And I've been singing songs in the middle of the night G.                 Cadd9         Am Trying to make you see G.                  D That I'm worthy C of your love  G.                               D You come crashing into me ...

All the Breaths I Cannot Take

I want to see you inspired I want to see you set fire To the world around you And I want to see you do Everything you say you will And I will be there stoking the flames Setting your dreams ablaze Watching you come to life With fiery ambition With fearless vision Of who you want to be And I would burn cities to the ground If it meant you could let your mind Run wild Like everything is possible for you Because I believe that to be true And my heart catches fire in my chest I’ve never felt anything quite like this The blissful sound of your voice And I am falling so hard I've crashed through the surface And I'm falling further Into you and those arms I could hold you for hours And never grow tired Of your embrace I'm living by the breaths I cannot take Because you take my breath away.

You & Me

Swept away By the way You hold your lips The way you trace my fingertips And I want to put my feet to the pavement See how far I can get How close to your heart I can be I want you and me On crowded streets  And when our eyes meet Knowing this feeling Is not fleeting It’s not common And I want to run Toward you as fast as I can I want to hold your hand And I want to dance I want to let you cut loose And know all the while that I don’t want to lose Someone like you I want you to take me to your favorite bar I want to be somewhere You love to be And I want to believe That you and I can have it all Maybe I can have the kind of love I’ve dreamed of All along. 

In the dead of night

I want to wake with you in the dead of night Sit on the edge of the bed  While you sort through the music in your head That keeps you up I’ll be the harmony That you need To survive And I will thrive In the light of your smile. I’ll rise to meet you In the darkness While you light up the night In the stillness Of the world outside And I’ll watch in wonder while you stretch the canvas wide And paint the room With the tunes That have always been on my mind I’ll find Comfort in that song you play In the moment when night turns into day And the sun comes up blazing To shine on you and the amazing Things that you will do When these daydreams Become realities When hope isn’t dangling on a string Just above my reach

tin roof

I’ve got so many things running through my brain My thoughts sound like rain On a tin roof- And somewhere in my mind is the proof That I am someone to behold I just want to be bold Enough to bare witness To the wondrous Woman who renders me speechless I have all of these things I’m dying to say But when your eyes meet my gaze We only exist in moments Where everything makes sense Where hours feel like seconds And no amount of time is sufficient No words quite explain This feeling in my veins This river of adoration This ocean of elation That I feel when you touch my face When you find your place By my side And I know you don’t want to hide And I don’t either So I’m just out here in the ether Wondering if you’re thinking about me Wanting to talk to you so persistently I can hardly think of anything else Compared to what you’re dealing with yourself I know this is nothing So I’m not asking for anything I’m just craving the so...

waves

you knew when you climbed into my truck can't ignore the rush of waves washing over us and I'm tongue tied cause I've tried so hard to say all the right things to lift you up on wings made of words to make sure you heard me when I said I wouldn't hurt you in resounding fashion can you feel the passion that I have for you? I'm swept away in eyes of blue that burn like the break of day these floodgates have opened and I'm sprinting to catch the horizon so I can stand closer so I can hear your heartbeat flutter I want to hold you forever and never let go and in my arms I hope you'll know that this is real.

The Ledge

I spent all day trying to catch my breath Trying to hold onto something still, so I might step Off this ledge My feet hanging off the edge Anticipating the great fall Trying to stall The inevitable push or maybe the pull And I'm cascading down like a waterfall Falling head over heels Into something that feels So real And so right for me But I'm free falling Suspended in the air Frozen in time, pretending I don't care If my neck breaks Under the weight Of these thoughts in my brain And the strain On my heart that I'm trying to ignore When I watch you walk away and implore you stay When I have no business Asking, when I have no right to insist That you should And I know that you wish you could And maybe that will be enough for now While I figure out how To put my heart in a music box You can keep on your vanity So you can twist me up and let me go until I border insanity Maybe I'm already insane Or maybe smart, for wanting someone who f...

Bending to Break

I’ve been made of stone I’ve been too far gone And I’m finally standing up straight After years of bending to break For people who weren’t willing to do the same Burdened by empty promises And made to feel worthless But then you crumble when I speak And you tell me I bring you to your knees And these things that I feel for you Are so true I just wanna stow away with you I want to keep you Close to me Just one moment when goodbyes Are muffled beneath the sounds of butterflies In your stomach And I want to stay underneath A sheet Of devotion and simplicity Where we can drink felicity Like wine With legs intertwined And mouths that speak only in poetry Where I could try to make you love me. 

lost & found

I want wings so I can fly Above this town so high That the street lights Look like flecks of gold Up where I can hold My breath Where the atmosphere is thin Where there will be a reason Why my lungs won't inflate Somewhere I can wait This out Without The doubt That gets so loud I want to cover my ears like a child Because I let my brain run wild And maybe I'll forget The way I can't quit Thinking about the stories you told Afraid of being scolded For skinning your knee Wiping away blood with leaves I wanna know who made you feel bad about feeling weak I wanna know who told you that you always disappoint I want to keep these memories in mason jars So I can remember How you wanted me Before this haunted me When seconds felt like hours And for a moment in time, this world was ours To light the night With sparks flying But I'll be up among the stars With my scarred Heart Where my feet don't touch the ground Where I will be lost and fo...

Skin & Bones

Lay me down Beneath this star filled sky Let me close my eyes for a while The taste of salt on my tongue Head against the pavement as I come undone Waves wash over me Periodically Waves of sadness Waves of darkness And then a crashing wave of gratitude Can’t decide what my attitude Is gonna be like How I’m gonna see you in the daylight I feel like we are moons and suns I rise you fall You fall I rise And I am chasing you across the horizon Only to stay at arms distance I’ve always felt the resistance But as I wait for the sun To come Back around I feel closer to the ground Than ever before And there’s no score To settle There are no winners  Only losers So I turn my chin to the sky Let the rain fall into my eyes And pray that they will blend together And no one will be able to tell whether I’ve flooded this town Or the rain did And I’ll forbid The thought that hurts the most I won’t be a ghost I’ll be skin a...

Armor?

I’m reduced to nothing. I knew this would bring Me to my knees And here I am With my head in my hands Wondering how I got so lost Here I am paying the cost For what I’ve done And there is no one Who can comfort me now No words to soften the blow Just this pillow That will catch my tears After years Of doing just enough To shake off the dust And survive Never feeling quite alive Just dragging my feet Through rain and sleet Through my world shaded grey And I can’t ask you to stay When I’m not your home Can not persuade you through this phone I want to beg you not to leave me alone Not because I can’t be But because I want you with me And the worst part is knowing That you want it too-showing Me, telling me every day that you want to be near That you want to hear What I have to say And my hands are shaking Every part of me is aching I want to rip my heart from its cage So it stops hurting-I want to rage Against my mi...

Street Lights

Incandescent light Washing over you In the middle of the street at night We try to leave But the pull is far more powerful Than we can believe It brings us hurdling back To each other Like trains on a track And I’m so glad That I could hold you one more time So sad I had to say goodbye At all But my heart is soaring high Because your fingers are in my hair Your smile is bright And your eyes are aglow with the flare Of this flame burning between us And I could look at you forever My desire to be next to you is ceaseless I watch you walk away And my body aches To chase After you I am full of words that I want to say Of mountains I want to move To be where you are To see those eyes To bring to life that smile Of yours To make you laugh To make your heart soar

Up in Smoke

Up in smoke So thick I choke With tar filled lungs And twisted tongues My scar filled arms And these thoughts swarm Around my head And I swat at them The tortured mobile That spins above me and I’ll  Deny my pain Reject the strain On my heart muscles Stretching Constricting Tired from the heavy lifting Of my spontaneous decisions Trying to clot around the self inflicted incisions These wounds are hard to close Hard to describe a feeling nobody knows And I’m infected And I’m wicked And I can’t cleanse myself of this So instead I clench these fists Until my fingers break Until I rake Across my hands with my fingernails When everything I try fails I’m a prisoner to my inability to cope With thoughts of hope And these grandiose things that I think My heads a mess tonight But I’m gonna be alright When the sun comes up again I’ll cover it up with a grin That stretches across my face Like worn leather masquerading as...

A face in the crowd

I’d be but a shadow in the dark Standing in the back of a crowded room And watch you up there in the light Guiding music with your hands Pouring your soul  Over others Like wine To make them feel music for the first time I would be a flower on the wall To watch you come to life I would be the sky That you needed to shine I would be the contrast Of a star That is you  To light the night Like fire Like hot burning coals Like electricity You burn so brightly You can’t be put out Can’t be stifled And I just want to be a face in the crowd Eyes that never leave you Hands that long to touch you  I watch the minutes tick down And wonder when you will begin To fill the room with wonder When you will, charming and beautiful Stand before them And change them With songs With music you made By rousing the hearts of youths By stirring the dust That settles at the bottom Of our minds And inspire Us all to lift ...